I'm gonna work backwords here.

I have to get up in 3 hours and go back to work.

I've been trying to sleep but I have too much on my mind.

I just worked a shift that started at 4pm and ended at 12:30am.

Before that I was lying in bed trying to sleep from the shift that started at 9pm the night before and ended at 7am the next morning.

Before that I was at my FIFTH callback for this damn musical and was there for FIVE hours... reading the same part with a number of other people they were bringing in for other roles.

I can't sleep because.... While this is only Toronto theatre... CanStage is one of the more renowned companies in Canada and getting this part may be a really really big deal for me.

I keep thinking of what I'll do if I get it... rehearsals won't start until Feb.... so... I can join a gym... take dance classes.... take vocal lessons.... have that cosmetic surgery I've always wanted....

And I haven't even gotten it yet.... in fact I've never let myself be excited about any acting role before... the business is built on being able to take rejection and I take it very well... I get rejected hundreds of times a year.....

But I've never been this close to something this big before and I don't know who to talk about it to.

I'm not really close with anyone from my acting class anymore... most people from it have given up, moved to Montreal, stopped being close, or become INCREDIBLY famous.

And, the girl that I live with... that is a great friend..... but will never be anything more.... is excited for me but doesn't understand.

And now I have 30 minutes less to sleep before I go back to work.

I'm so tired.

I'm sorry I don't have a computer to play WoW with you.

I miss you all very much.

My life is not exactly what I would like it to be right now (but who's is?) and as soon as I get regular time on my computer I'll play with you again.

I don't have a lot of close friends, but I do consider you to be.... even though I have never spoken in person to you.

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sounds a lot like me.

I wake up, go to to work

get off work, pass out a couple hours later

wake up, go to work.

Ever tried yoga? or meditation? Or even Tai Chi?

I, personally, think this was one of the most touching posts I've ever read.

I'm sorry about your insomnia, Fox...wish there was something we could do. :( I have my own methods for putting myself to sleep when my head won't shut up, but they're kinda hokey so I won't announce them here (shh...the cool kids are listening!).

Does it consist of smoking a big fat joint?

Background noise such as a fan or heater helps me go to sleep. WoW does not help me go to sleep. WoW + No Lux saying come to bed = 2 hrs sleep.

I slept through my alarm....

Woke up to the sound of the fucker who's been giving me these hours I didn't agree to calling me (half an hour after I was supposed to be there).

I didn't apologize for being late and he obviously knew how pissed I was that he expected me to sleep for 3 hours and then work again because he didn't say anything about me being late.

One more 5 hour shift tonight and then one more 10 hour shift tomorrow and then I don't think I'll be freelancing for this company for a very long time.

O.... and I get to see 311 tomorrow night to try and relax....

Hopefully I'll get some good news before that so it can be a celebration.

Thanks for all your thoughts! :)

I could have sworn insomnia was part of the new american lifestyle.

Try some melatonin before bed, but I swear that ish' made me lucid dream to some extent.

just my 2c


cheers

Just stopping by to say that I got it.

I'm going to celebrate now.

Thank you so much for the songs Lux!!!!!

CONGRATS!!!

...glad that shit music could be helpful to someone.  Did I mention that I hate the Hair soundtrack? Perhaps it's just the way my wife sings it.

W00t!!!! You are AWESOME, Fox! Tonight I will drink in your honor!
Sooooo exciting! :D

Congratulations! Now you're REALLY never gonna get any sleep...